The Shape of This Moment (Collab Album) with EMIYA
Lyrics
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Rainstorms follow me
Shadows live in my head
I wish that the sun would stay in bed
And never rise again
I wish I wasn’t so curious
But i cannot pretend
All i think about is
How none of this makes any sense
I’m a isolated kid
Disconnected, no reception
Tryna find a way home
But I’m lost in this dimension
It’s hard to relate to humans
With this lack of a connection
Tryna find a way
With this lack of a direction
Different and I wouldn’t
Have it any other way
I’m considered super strange
I was made without a face
You can’t t label someone like me
I was born without a name
I’m a vagabond
So I never had a place to stay
Always been a work in progress
Nothing close to “master piece”
Nothing’s given while you living
We don’t get no guarantees
Make sure you do what you want to
Even if they disagree
Cuz opinions do not matter
When we’re buried underneath
Do not try to control me
You can’t, I’m uncontrollable
Got sick of confrontation
So i became unapproachable
These people tryna change me
But sorry, that’s non negotiable
I used to be persuaded
But I am no longer gullible
I don’t know what to make of this
Life is a risk, I’m taking it
There’s no use in explaining it
Just know there’s no replacing it
So take a moment, take it in
I’m in the game, I play to win
Breaking barriers beyond my level
I’m fuckin’ raising it
Chasing what i been dreaming
Cannot be denied of that
A little bit of happiness
I guess that I desire that
I started thinking crazy
And i had to be reminded that
If I do not succeed
That i tried and that I’m fine with that
Stand Alone Complex
Stand Alone Complex
Better off alone
In this place made of nonsense
I cannot conform to the norm
Until i drop dead
Undiscovered king
Shuffled deep in a card deck
Never lost sleep
Over opinions of a sheep
I do not pray to the lord
Cuz my soul is not something that he could keep
I dont believe in nothing
Unless it’s something that i can see
I am not sure if I’m real
So i am not even being me
Troubled, I’m a reject
Sin, I never repent
Fuck you and your respect
Created with defects
And it sounds crazy
But I’ve always been objective
I just can’t see life
From an ordinary perspective
Don’t know what to make of this
Life’s a risk, I’m taking it
Changing mine, I’m facing it
I’m the isolated kid
Check it, it’s Dempsey
Don’t nobody get me
The sickest to emcee
Inside, I be empty
Not scared of the moment
Was born to be ready
The flow is so holy
It parted the Red Sea
Waking up, I’ve had enough
Of listening to lies
I don’t give a fuck
I’m big enough to do what i decide
Fuck the system, fuck em’ all
I cannot do what i despise
If they crucify me over what i think
Don’t be surprised
I’m an animal, a monster
They want to cage me
They’re afraid I’ve adapted
To the nature of the beast
As long as I know
That i got someplace to go
I know that I’ll be okay
Forever falling astray
Till’ i fade away
Isolated, somewhat sorrow
I live like there’s no tomorrow
Maybe there’s not one for you or me
Product of my own surroundings
That’s why I see ghosts around me
Terrified, my chest is pounding
They know everything about me
Silent screams
Silent screams
Silent screams
Silent screams
Silent screams
Silent screams
Everywhere’s a cemetery
Everyone is getting buried
Six feet deep in a graveyard
Six feet deep in a graveyard
Angels do not watch me
All they seem to do is haunt me
Maybe Heaven does not want me
Can’t control what is beyond me
Wrote down all my problems on a long sheet
How come anybody doesn’t want me
Dead inside, I feel just like a zombie
Slit my throat if I am just a copy
I am just a spirit in a body
Made with the mind of a kamikaze
If i want to crash, no one could stop me
I’ll be coming down like a tsunami
Wrapped around in chainsI know I’m not free
Afraid of the pain overthinking caused me
I don’t even know me so I’m not me
If i give up early, then I’m sorry
Never fit in with em, I’m a dropout
Alien to people till I clock out
They said i was weird so much I lost count
It is what it is, I cannot stop now
Everyone I met just seemed to walkout
There’s so many names I had to cross out
All the noise I heard, I had to blockout
Didn’t feel a thing then, it hurts a lot now
As long as I know
That i got someplace to go
I know that I’ll be okay
Forever falling astray
Till’ i fade away
Isolated, somewhat sorrow
I live like there’s no tomorrow
Maybe there’s not one for you or me
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What’s up with this reflection
I see on a daily basis?
I’m supposed to have one
But I have a lot of Faces
Multiple personalities
Sprout from a foundation
Of self doubt, damn it
I can’t take this
Nobody knows anything
Maybe it’s all a fantasy
I’m not sure how to say this
But maybe this is insanity
I’m frantically panicking
Thinking more than irrationally
Substantially, I’m stranger
Than the rest of humanity
Tell me, how’s it possible
To feel this lonely if I’m not alone
Shit, there’s billions of people
Despite that, I’m on my own
This petrifying confusion
Is something I can’t control
It’s like every night
I wander different parts of the unknown
Taking it back, back in the day
Stuck in the past, try to escape
Got a regret, made a mistake
There is a feeling i cannot replace
Fuck society’s standards
You bastards got it all backwards
I do what I love
Cuz nothing else really matters
When the story of your life
Is reaching it’s final chapter
Mine’s a juxtaposition
A beautiful disaster
Every night, I wonder why
I’m still alive, I have not died
Except inside, I lost my mind
I cannot find this brain of mine
I ain’t got a place here
Not part of this generation
I’m different, this a confession
I’m hurt by the separation
Between us and getting treated
Like some sort of mental patient
They do not know what I’ve been through
Fuck everyone’s speculations
Disappointed everybody
That i care about
Disappearing
Don’t nobody know my whereabouts
I’ve been thinking
I should float away a fair amount
Lost somebody that I love
My life is tearing down
Somebody pinch me
Please, I’m fuckin’ over this
In a deep sleep
Deeper than what the ocean is
Inside a body
but I don’t possess ownership
I want to wake up but I’m…
Never waking up from
This never ending nightmare
Never waking up from
This never ending nightmare
Never waking up
Never waking up
Never waking up
From this never ending nightmare
Never waking up
Never waking up
Never waking up
From this never ending nightmare
Never waking up from
This never ending nightmare
Never waking up from
This never ending nightmare
Never waking up from
This never ending nightmare
Never waking up from
This never ending nightmare
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The biggest clowns
Hide the biggest frowns
When I smile, it’s upside down
When I spit, it’s so profound
Dempsey with the ultrasound, woah
I can’t help it, I’m so adventurous
Before I go to Hell
I’ll piss on top of Mount Everest
They say to follow dreams
When the time is right, but it never is
So fuck it, I just went for it
My decision was excellent
I’mma make the cadence slow
Fuck it, this is my jaded flow
Like I’m basically faded, bro
Fuck her, but never save a hoe
Not about the money
But all of us need some paper though
Hundreds, I need a case of those
When they hate, let the data show
Always been the underdog
I feel like I’m the greatest hoe
Struggle, it played a major role
Silence haters with fatal blows
Laugh now, cry later
Just to cope, I like paper
Sparking up a lightsaber
Nothing like a mind breaker
Fuck, it’s such a nice flavor
Fuck, it’s such a life saver
Spitting flames out my mouth
Feel like I’ve defied nature
Hold up, take it back
Let’s jump into a time chamber
Blazing it, I’m faded bitch
I like it when my sight wavers
Mentally proficient
So I’m something like a psych major
I do what i want to
I’m nothing like advice takers
Focused like I never been
Tryna get my mind right
People talk a lot
They sour, I’m in the limelight
Living in my shadow
Coming up and I’mma shine bright
Insomniac I never see the sun
Unless it’s twilight
Cry now, laugh later
Tears of sorrow mask anger
Impotence implies danger
Dig into my heart’s craters
Wandering into the dark
Searching for a lifesaver
In my head I talk to me
I’m talking to a damn stranger
Hopeless, can’t control this
Overcome with cold emotions
Soulless now I cope with
Feeling frozen, cold emotions
Laugh now, cry later
We just do it by nature
Till we meet our life takers
My work is divine labor
Climbing up to Heaven
Kick our maker of his skyscraper
Tell me “if you made my mind
How is it that mine’s greater?”
It’s an unfortunate thing
Living while stuck in between
What I perceive to be real
And what i think is a dream
A process of evolution
A product of revolutions
The outcome of dissolution
I wonder what it all means
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Don’t know how to let us go
Our romance is a dead rose
I never been the same
No the pain never left
Our love didn’t last
but it came and it went
Same old shit, I just sin and repent
I need fresh air so I’m taking a breath
Heavy on top and its all in my chest
Far apart girl but its all for the best
I guess I’ll settle with a call or a text
I miss your voice and I’m missing our sex
Feels like I’m living on death row
Sort of like our romance is a dead rose
Roots ripped out from my heart so it can't grow
Things I’m feeling right now but I can't show
And you felt bad but so did I
Left me here with my soul to die
I thought you were as cold as ice
So damn sad when its late at night
A promise is a promise until its broken
Told me to be honest, “free and open”
We both lie, we both hopeless
We both cry, we both soulless
Hopping in my car with my lips sealed
Watching rain fall on the windshield
Falling apart but you been healed
Really how the fuck do I still feel?
The planet keeps spinning so i gotta move on
You’re the only one I never want to move from
I’m so done, already seen a few gone
I’m still alive but something is wrong
When I met you, I swear you saved me
Couldn’t go a day without you baby
I’m on your mind too, it’s daily
Nothing you do separates me
Please stay true don’t lie to yourself
Trapped in my mind where I’m hiding myself
World so big but I’m by myself
Atleast you’re mine in my mind, to myself
Dead inside i’m dead inside
Only alive when we lock eyes
Numb inside, I’m numb inside
Broken down, I don’t know why
Don’t know how to let us go
Our romance is a dead rose
Don’t know how to let us go
Our romance is a dead rose
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It’s so easy to see right through you
Easy to see right through you
You gave me hell
Love is a masquerade
I truly believed I knew you
Try to just see from view
Sorry to say “love is a masquerade”
After all I did for you
This is how you repay me?
You weren’t supposed to hurt me
You were supposed to save me
I cannot forget you
All the memories you gave me
Everything you did to me’s
Starting to drive me crazy
How’d i get betrayed?
I cared about you, insane
Get the fuck out of my brain
I don’t think I’ll be the same
Afraid to even engage
So look at what I became
I hate you now I’m in pain
This love is a masquerade
Riddled with scars
And now in the dark, I roam
You changed me so long ago
I don’t want to walk alone
But that’s how it’s got to go
This sorrow’s unstoppable
I’m not who I once was
Losing my trust was easy
Do not pretend you need me
You only miss me briefly
Now I’m so broken
And it’s so
It’s so easy to see right through you
Easy to see right through you
You gave me hell
Love is a masquerade
I truly believed I knew you
Try to just see from view
Sorry to say “love is a masquerade”
Save me your excuses
I know what the truth is
Why’d you put me through this?
Why’d you have to do this?
Made me feel so useless
Made me look so foolish
Save me your excuses
I know what the truth is
There’s nothing you can say
And nothing you can do
Anything you try
Will never bring me back to you
Love’s a masquerade Riddled
One day it fades away
Someday you’ll be betrayed
I’m letting out the rage
Ah
It’s easy to you
That you been hiding
Secrets inside
There’s no use in fighting
Do not say you’re sorry
I’m sick of the lying
No more crying
I feel like I’m dying
I’ve run out of tears
They’re finally drying
Finally drying
The pain is subsiding
When i see your face
I try to survive it
I try to survive it but
It’s easy to see
Easy to see
Easy to see right through your
So easy to see right through you
You gave me hell love is a masquerade
I truly believed I knew you
So sorry to say “love is a masquerade”
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